So it is either my best quality or greatest downfall that when I set my mind on some idea, I will become so focused on that thing that it is all I can think about.  It can be a person, a work-related activity, a crazy idea…I am very emotional about things and I think that that opens me up to a lot more hurt than some people are willing to expose themselves to.  I also think that it makes me love a little deeper and laugh a little harder.  It also really sucks when a person I’ve gotten in my head takes a longer time to act than I want because I work myself into a tizzy thinking about why something isn’t happening, then I get down on myself and think “why isn’t he calling?” and that leads to, “he realised I’m not good enough for him” or “he wouldn’t want to date me” and then I forget to take a step back and go “all we did was exchange numbers so we could play guitar together and have a jam buddy, so why don’t I call him instead?”  THEN I psych myself out further by thinking that he is gonna think its pretentious of me to make contact first because he asked for my number and maybe I should just be patient since it’s only been less than 3 days even if it was a long weekend and maybe he still had to work since paramedics don’t really get holidays….

…So, this turned into something a little more specific than hypothetical. Oh well, such is life…